In the Middle of Alcohol-Free (Day 8)
Week two begins today. One weekend behind me. Actually it wasn’t too bad, with the exception of too many hippie bars. Still, a little sugar to get me to success is worth it.
I happen upon an old journal, one that has three days worth of writings on a journey I began, only to fail after likely that third evening.
Still, failure is the new success, right? According to Thomas Edison it is,
“I have not failed. I’ve just found 10,000 ways that won’t work.” Or, “Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.”
It’s all on focus.
A couple of takeaways from the small spurt of success—inspiration I can take hold of today:
“At the one-week mark, give yourself a reward. Your first of many.”
“I am not calmer, only sedated. And truth is, many of my desperate crying episodes are after a drink or two.”
And, “Yes, I’m bored. But alcohol is passive, not active. It just makes me tired without effort. I’m not relieving boredom, only entertaining it.”
One final thing from the two-day success journey:
I’m guessing this is in reference to Annie Grace’s book, Alcohol Experiment, she says on how moderation is so difficult versus abstinence because the mind is constantly processing whether to, how much, when I can again, etc.
“Exhausting. True that, to not have to think about something I battle with wanting and not wanting and instead enjoy the freedom of filling my thoughts with things I enjoy, without the tension, like reading, running, friends, movies, etc.”
Oh, and alcohol is dehydrating. Which is taxing to the body. And since I run and about to run longer distances, do I really want to start out with a depleted system?
I don’t think so.
Books to complete this week: Educated, and, Rejection Proof.
Oh, and one more thing, it is time to reward this accomplishment with some new workout clothes.
Way to go Josie! Way to Go!