In the Middle of Alcohol-Free (Days 21-22)
Who do I look up to? Yes, I know it is not a grammatically correct question. It’s not exactly an easy answer though either, finding a person to represent all that is what I desire to model as a human being.
I look up to many-a-person for many reasons. Like the one who starts with nothing, works hard, overcomes obstacles and ends up at the top.
The one who has not only talked the talk, but walked the walk.
The examples of triumph against all odds.
I love to see The Little Engine That Could – I think I can, I think I can, I think I can. I love to see her little self arrive at did.
I’ve pondered this question for two days now, only coming back to it, wondering, why on earth can I not find someone to look up to in this arena, one a few steps ahead of me–or many years for that matter.
It’s not like I hang around only drinkers, I have many friends who never touch the stuff.
But, I want someone who has walked through, and on the other side, not one who hasn’t had to trudge through temptations, desires, or setbacks.
So, I wonder, what if I can be my own example?
Me, the one staring at me on the other side of the mirror.
To be an example to my girls, watching me–so they see when it’s time to reevaluate some unhealthy patterns, all it takes is the first step of courage to acknowledge our issues that need assistance.
To see it is okay to fail when we try.
And when we struggle to continue, when we are at our weakest, to show them it’s okay to reach to the ones we’re closest to–because they will be behind us, pushing us up the hills we never thought we could climb.