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Does it matter…Do I matter?

If there is no one to notice, does it really matter? If there is no one to notice, do I matter? I shaved my legs today–a feat because it’s likely been since New York since the razor touched the leg. But before gross enters in, I am hardly a gorilla, more like a peach. Still,…

Firsts

Yesterday was another hard one. Loneliness felt a lifetime long. Maybe the transition of one daughter leaving and the other possibly not coming, leaves me feeling alone. Still. Quiet. Like my life is stuck in this vortex of longterm grief. Without end. Maybe it was the first inspirational talk I gave since Bill’s death. Usually…

I Want to Go Through, Not Get Through

March 22, 2018 Yesterday played a melody of easy, until an unexpected song entered, and my emotions were captured by the familiarity of heartache, as tears made their uninvited way out of hiding. Yes, tears. No surprise here, since I still cry almost daily. But most are reserved for private, and these arrived in public,…